I Need More Time

Before I begin, I feel the need to say that I am STILL short-sighted. That's how fucked up my eyes were BEFORE the eye surgery, hence the title of this very pointless note.

I wish I were in a place where it snows. I mean, January is terribly depressing but at least snow would give your depression a certain aura of, well... REAL depression? Like the weather is down along with you, your empty pockets, the things you have not accomplished in the past year,  and the ones you're too lazy to do? But when you live in a place where the sun's out everyday and the trees are green, and there are fucking birds singing all the time, being depressed feels... I don't know, it feels like a rebellion! Yes, that's what it feels like. No wonder birds and bees don't come anywhere near me: "That bitch is spoiling my day" Well, at least my dog doesn't mind or maybe it's the box of cookies I have in my room...

I started off the new year on a very musical mood. I've downloaded pretty much every byte of indie music that circulated the web in 2008, I love my music. If only I could get that bit of snow, it'd truly take my depression up to a new level. Like, hey, I'm broke but I am listening to Fleet Foxes' White Winter Hymnal and it's snowing outside! Now, wouldn't that be a perfect setting for a depression. 

Is it El Huason or El Guason? And I didn't know this character was born in Perth, Australia in 1979. Isn't that Heath Ledger? I HATE it when people confuse fiction with reality. Anyway, according to those pointless ads that appear on the right side of the screen, one of my friends is a fan. Whatever. 

My sister wrote her New Year's resolutions yesterday. Is there anything sadder than New Year's resolutions? As if you needed a reminder of how bad you are at meeting deadlines or fulfilling promises. Just today she said she was going to start a diet (and by the way, who on earth doesn't "start" a diet on January 1st?) but since we were down missing the snow we will never see in this decidedly overlit city, I thought it'd be appropriate to make some hot chocolate and really, no one's strong enough to say no to chocolate when it's an off day. Chocolate is like rebound sex, scratch that, chocolate is like sex, you just can't say no to it. It doesn't matter how many brain cells die to try to convince you that you are making a mistake, that it's a hasty decision, that you should think things over, that you are risking more than you can gain, blah, blah. None of that matters because you're in for the pleasure of it. Weak? Absolutely, do I care? No. Another thing that sex and chocolate have in common is that they help increase serotonin levels in your brain so that you can be a happier person! So science agrees with me. I forgot if this was about sex or chocolate. Chocolate + sex, nice and... lots of serotonin as well. I think I should move on to another subject. 

Now there's another ad on the right corner of the screen "Do you know about Adam Levine?" Well, not really, except his voice sounds girlie and he's too skinny for my liking and there has not been a more overplayed song than She Will Be Loooooooooooved, I swear it's been played more times than fucking My Heart Will Go On. I don't get why most women like men who expose their softy side. I don't. Now, don't get me wrong, of course I do like a man who's able to show his feelings and be sensitive but please: Look. Like. A. Man. That BS about "I loved you from the moment I first saw you" and "You are my sunshine", who buys that? I like passionate, well-grounded, and enigmatic men that don't tell me they love me every five seconds. I firmly believe that the more you tell someone you love them, the more meaningless the whole phrase becomes. Keep the mystery alive, would you please? One or two I-Love-You's here and there and that's it, make me look forward to it. Yes, I am practical. So, Adam darling, I'll pass you are TOO corny and simple for my taste.

Share a song you loved way back in the day.

So embarrassing, but true.  Me and my friends would dance like crazy to this song. It hurts my indie-loving soul now.

Scatman

What most excites you about the way you're living your life right now?

I'm learning about things I've always wanted to learn about but never had the chance to. That's pretty much it: I'm learning.

Do you believe in ghosts? If so, have you ever seen one?

No and no. Though I had this very weird dream last night: In the dream, I was at the office and it was late at night so it was just me there. All of sudden I hear voices coming from the conference room. So I go to the room and to my horror there was like a conference going on, a conference of people looking ghostly.  The creepy thing is that all of them were people I must have seen at some in my life but never got to talk to? There was a guy from camp back when I was like 7, people I would bump into at uni but never meet? It was such an anxiety-ridden dream!

What would you do with your extra time off next time you are in-between jobs?
Submitted by Oleg Dulin.

Go to Italy to improve my Italian and maybe visit other parts of Europe. 

Who's the most annoying person on TV?

Paula Abdul! 

What time is your alarm clock set for?  Do you use the snooze button?

It's set at 5:34AM but since I use the snooze button, I end up waking up an hour later.  I'd be like "*Yaaaaaaawn* Hmmm, there's still time" when I know pretty well there isn't.  I always get late at class, no matter the day.  I have like three alarms: the one from the TV, my cell phone and the actual alarm clock. The funny thing is I am a very light sleeper, it's not like I can go back to sleep once all three alarms go off, I just close my eyes and stay there and think a lot. Does that make sense? Because many things haven't lately. 

If a waiter stopped by right now to take your order, what cocktail or drink are you having?

Anything with vodka in it.  I love red wines as well.

What's your favorite flavor of ice cream?

Oh God, I'm torn between chocolate and strawberry.  I'll say both.